and when I haven’t written in days…..

I haven’t typed a blog post in a week I guess.

I’ve had a couple rolling around in my brain.

Sometimes my thoughts work themselves around in my mind in the blog format.

(It’s not really something new. My head operates through Story and The ReTelling. It’s this narrative I’ve had talking to myself since I was a kid. I just assumed it was how everyone’s inner monologue worked.)

At any rate.

It’s been a week.

And the only reason I can really find to come up with is this: I just haven’t felt like writing.

As in, shrug my shoulders and curl my lip and say “eh”.

It’s funny.

Most parts of my life won’t make room for the “I just don’t feel like it” excuse.

6 o’clock in the evening. Mid-project. Hungry faces all slack-jawed, gazing in my direction.

“I just don’t feel like it” doesn’t quite cut it.

So I sludge right on through and do what has to be done.

It might not be my best effort, but no one goes hungry. The plate might feature a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with a side of applesauce, but it’s edible food.

Even when my heart’s not in it, there are certain jobs I must complete.

Writing isn’t one of them.

Not yet anyway.

There’s not a boss of the blog and there’s no paycheck relying on the activity of my muse.

Which gives me the freedom to shrug my shoulders and say, “Not today.”